So it’s been a long time since I last blogged. HELLO AGAIN BLOG! Lots has changed, and lots has not changed.
I have been at my new job since September – and it is really good. I went in open about my depression, and have completed my training. I enjoy what I do, which is good.
In other news, my depression has returned, and I have been off sick from work for 2 months. And as I am in the probationary period at work I don’t get sick pay, yay! But I should go back soon (monday, fingers crossed!) and as long as I do I shouldn’t lose my job. They have been very understanding and accommodating, which is a relief. I’m not sure what triggered my latest bout of depression; it started just after Christmas. I have a vitamin D deficiency to go with it!! Go me!! And now I’m on a high dose of citalopram again.
I have spoken with an NHS person and should get CBT appointments through soon. Hopefully I can tame the depression beast this time around. And the lady that did my phone assessment says my depression is presenting a little like agoraphobia at the moment – so the mere thought of going to work (even though I like work) makes me feel panicky. And I feel grim and exhausted nearly constantly – old news that.
In better news, I have had driving lessons – and I finally took my test a week ago. I passed first time and I thought I hit the kerb but it was just potholes. And I only had one minor (I stalled once) so now I can drive my little red car. It’s good having the independence, but I think I had too high hopes for the impact it would have on my depression. Depression not gone 😦 .
Things got better and then worse – but I believe they can get better again, especially if I can get back to work. I will endeavour to blog more frequently from now – but that’s all from me today. Thanks.