So its been far too long since I last blogged. Lots of stuff has changed, some for the better, but there’s still teething problems here and there. I guess anyone with mental health glitches will tell you its never smooth sailing! Ah well. Here’s the condensed version of it:
1. Not being very technically savvy, somehow I’ve decided its good to have twitter. Hi twitter! I don’t understand you but you look so pretty
2. So I’ve been trying to lose weight since Februaryish. Which incidentally coincides with me being a year older and no more grown up. I’ve been counting calories using an android app called My Net Diary. I would highly recommend it! Its simpler for me than My Fitness Pal. I have lost a total of 11.4kilos! Whew! I am really proud. I’ll keep on going though; still a ways away from a healthy BMI. I’m confident I’ll get there eventually. Slow and steady wins the race and all that!
3. Alongside the diet I’ve started doing pilates. Pilates is hard. Especially since I get fatigued super fast, my joints are sometimes squiffy and I’m totally clumsy. But at least I’m trying! Yay, exercise!
4. So I’m still not working, I’ve made attempts to volunteer at a local animal rescue, and I don’t think I’m quite ready for it yet. I went a bit loopy from tiredness when I tried going. Will try again soon though!
5. My rat Rufus was very poorly. Unfortunately on March 10th I made the difficult decision to have him euthanised; he was half the weight he should have been, was dehydrated and suffering from an incurable respiratory illness. I hated to see him suffer. I was devastated, and utterly heartbroken, but couldn’t bear to see my little guy in pain. His brother Kipper was really lonely after this so…
6. A while later I got Kipper some friends! From the local animal rescue, two 11mo male rats, Yeti (albino dumbo) and Fendrick (dark brown hooded). As a condition of their adoption, I purchased a second hand larger cage. After careful intros, they are now best of friends with Kipper. Kipper is much perkier, more active and all-round happier. He boggles his eyes with joy so often now I feel so glad! And having little squishes to cuddle is helping keep my mood up, as always. I love having rats! I still miss my Rufus every day. I loved him to bits. Little rats have such a huge hold on my heart!
7. I’m vegan now! Lots of exclamation marks!!!!! Today is day four of being vegan. I decided to become vegan because I believe that as the only species that can empathise with our prey, why do we see its suffering and choose to cause more? Its not ‘nature’ and ‘survival of the fittest’ anymore. It feels like human greed. I am horrified by factory farming practices that treat animals as a commodity and not living, feeling creatures. In a first world country, I am lucky enough to have choice in what I put on my plate. I can live without eating animals, I am fortunate enough to have the resources to do so; so why not give it my best shot? I am happy that I have made this choice, and am excited to try new foods, and delve deeper into the ethics of farming and the use of animal products. It would be too idealistic to believe I can end all animal suffering, but I can do my bit to reduce suffering and make the world a little bit of a better place. I am learning a lot and opening my mind to new opinions, scoping out exactly where I stand in all this. Animal ethics is not a black-and-white issue. There’s a lot I still need to learn and look in to.
Phew! That’s a lot of updating! Would just like to make a few final comments, and then restate my promise to ‘blog more often’. I do try, honest!
So, there’s a book that if you or a loved one have dealt with depression, I feel explains things very well. I told my boyfriend that it is ‘like an x-ray into my mind when the depression is bad’: the book is ‘Reasons to stay alive’ written by Matt Haig. I read it in one sitting. Its fantastic! Go find it and read it!
I would like to say that I have a kind of vision that my blog will be a more regular outpouring of rat pictures, my experience of depression, life and my adventures as I dip my toe into the waters of veganism. Stay tuned to see if that actually materialises… Here goes!
Thanks for reading,